Heidi

The parish’s nascent young adults group is finally meeting. It’s a small but dedicated bunch. And then there’s “Heidi.”

A tall, slender brunette, Heidi has been a lively addition to the group. She’s different. In her skintight jeans and suggestive makeup, she contrasts with the more modest young women at church. I also sense a burning eroticism within her. (I once overheard her discussing her busy dating life.) I suspect she’s sexually active.

Last week, after a brief conversation after Bible study, she unexpectedly gave me a hug. Having Heidi’s body against mine was admittedly quite arousing. I imagined her hot naked body pressed against mine. My fingers wrapped around her long hair as I pull it. Her sweet voice emitting moans of pleasure.

I really want to get in between her legs.

Heidi’s sexiness seems out of place (although not unwelcome from my perspective) in our conservative parish. The Christian church traditionally has limited sexual self-expression. A short skirt raises eyebrows. A peek of cleavage can ignite a whispered campaign of slut-shaming. One young woman earned the sobriquet “evangelical whore” for having sex with her boyfriend.

One young woman whose nom de blog is “Horny Christian Girl” describes her battle between her love for God and “the desire to get it on.” She’s managed to maintain her virginity, but she masturbates. “It is rare that I’m ever not in the mood for sex,” she confesses.

Maybe Heidi’s the same way.