Beth

Somehow I have neglected to mention “Beth”….

Beth was a classmate of mine in high school and a colleague on the debate team. Yes, I had a crush on her. She was smart and mature. Her long brown hair and tall, slender physique also captured my fancy. (Despite my best efforts not to, I found myself ogling her smooth, pert ass.) She was friendly, but I’m fairly certain she didn’t notice my desire for her. Even by the standards of our conservative Christian high school, Beth was rather demure.

Fast forward a few years. Curious about whatever happened to her, I located Beth’s profile on Facebook. It didn’t take long to discover that she had been a dancer at a gentleman’s club.

Sweet, innocent Beth. On the pole.

She wraps those hands around that pole
She licks those lips and off we go
And she takes it off nice and slow
‘Cause that’s porn star dancing

My Darkest Days, “Porn Star Dancing”

Beth would have been among the last girls at my high school I would have ever suspected of becoming a stripper. I snooped around online some more and discovered her erotic profile, which included the revelation that she lost her virginity in high school to a cadet at a military academy.

My head began to spin. While Beth was wearing her True Love Waits ring at school and piously intoning against the evils of premarital sex, she was getting banged over the weekends. Then she became a sex worker.

Curious about Beth’s erotic rebellion, I scoured my memory for clues. I recall her parents were rather strict. She was conspicuously prudish (again, even by the standards of our conservative Christian high school). Perhaps she cracked under the pressure of having to live up to such high standards of holiness. I can certainly relate.

I’ve never been to a strip club, but I would gladly pay to see Beth on stage. Images I sought to suppress as an adolescent came racing back. That round, pert ass. Her enhanced breasts. (Her bust was noticeably more prominent than back in 11th grade.) Those long legs. Unabashedly flaunting her sexuality.

I confess to jerking off to her online photos.