She sat alone in a pew on the right.
Dark blond hair. A short blue sundress that showed off a golden tan and a shapely pair of legs.
She kept distracting me during the liturgy. I tried to focus on the sermon and the words to the hymns. I kept peeking at that short little sundress, though.
She had no idea I was visually stripping her dress off her and fantasizing about fucking her.
After the service, a parishioner introduced me to “Emily.” She recently graduated from college and returned to the area. Friendly and sweet, Emily said she is looking for a faith community to connect with. I offered to meet with her and introduce her to our parish’s educational offerings. Emily promised to contact me and set up a time to meet later this week.
Don’t do the pew.
Despite my sexual excesses, one line I haven’t crossed is engaging in a sexual relationship with a parishioner. I’ve certainly been tempted. Heidi and Anne tested my self-restraint. In the era of #MeToo and #ChurchToo, there are few easier ways to get dismissed from ministry than getting caught engaging in sexual misconduct. Sexual desire, however, cannot be so easily bracketed off from the life of the church. “For the pastor there are more situations, more opportunities to act out sexually,” one male pastor observed in Sex in the Parish. “If you’re not clear about your sexuality, you’re going to act on your fantasies.” A poll conducted by Christianity Today in the 1990s revealed that nearly one-fourth of clergy had engaged in some form of inappropriate sexual behavior. Some ministers suggest that even fantasizing crosses a line. “The limits of intimacy with a parishioner are stepped over when sexual fantasies abound.”
Lead us not into temptation.
Even as I spoke with Emily, my hypersexual imagination wondered what was under her dress. I thought about her wetness. Her tightness. Her soft moans. The way her tits would bounce during our exertions.
I doubt the thought would even cross her mind, but if Emily ever came on to me, in my weakness, I don’t think I’d be able to resist pulling her panties to the side.
Lutheran Guilt 