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Sex and the Divinity Student

“We’re going to fuck, right?”

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“April” was my first hookup. She was the girlfriend of a fellow student at divinity school. She’s outgoing, tall, athletic and incredibly pretty. We had gathered one Saturday night with a few classmates at a local watering hole. I don’t socialize easily, but I had acceded to their invitation that night. I was admittedly smitten with April, but I was too shy to approach her. Besides, she had a boyfriend.

But her boyfriend wasn’t there that night. (He was out of town.) April had quaffed a considerable amount of beer, and she started to flirt with me at the bar. I erased any consideration about her boyfriend from my mind and became totally engrossed with her. In high school, I was the shy, somewhat nerdy, repressed Lutheran kid who couldn’t imagine being with the pretty, popular girl, and here I was with her.

“Want to share a drink at my place?” she asked. I immediately took her up on her offer.

I drove us to her apartment (I had imbibed less). Once there, we starting making out on the couch. She soon made her intentions known. April pulled off her shirt, unbuttoned her jeans, then blurted out, “We’re going to fuck, right?”

I answered affirmatively. We went to her bedroom.

I nervously tore open the condom wrapper and sheathed myself. She climbed on top and rode me cowgirl, her tight, athletic body undulating on top of me.

We woke up the next morning in her bed. It was awkward. “Please don’t tell anyone about this!” she beseeched me.

I just did.

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    “For I do not understand my own actions” – Lutheran Guilt

    […] A brief synopsis: I am a single man in his early thirties completing a PhD at seminary and serving in lay ministry at a Lutheran parish. The product of a traditional religious upbringing, I struggle to reconcile my sexual behavior with my calling. My Testimony provides a brief introduction to my dilemma. I’ve described growing up in the purity culture, the struggle to remain pure as a young man, and ultimately losing my virginity to a call girl. Paying for sex has remained an essential part of my sexual experience. There have been liaisons with married women, an extended fling with a classmate, a brief but intense entanglement with a colleague in ministry, plus the occasional hookup. […]

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    “For I do not understand my own actions” – Lutheran Guilt

    […] A brief synopsis: I am a single man in his early thirties completing a PhD at a divinity school and serving in lay ministry at a Lutheran parish. The product of a traditional religious upbringing, I struggle to reconcile my sexual behavior with my calling. My Testimony provides a brief introduction to my dilemma. I’ve described growing up in the purity culture, the struggle to remain pure as a young man, and ultimately losing my virginity to a call girl. Paying for sex has remained an essential part of my sexual experience. There have been liaisons with married women, an extended fling with a classmate, a brief but intense entanglement with a colleague in ministry, plus the occasional hookup. […]

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